T-Dubs wisdom

Poor hubby has his wisdom teeth done today.

I feel for him.

Pray for a quick recovery.

Happy Friday everyone!

Also Friday is my new weight in.

SW 183.2 over a week ago

And today this, so some progress

I'll take loss where I can get it!

Weigh In

http://theoatmeal.com/comics/running

This is one of the best online comics to begin with but this running one=amazingness!
Read it Now!

For anyone who has ever run this is awesome!

Booooo yoyo!!

I'm only up .2 lbs. 

you might wonder why I'm mad?

I've been weighing 3 times a week MWF

And by Friday I can usually be down to 181 or 180.

Then the weekend hits.

We leave on Friday for NYC.

I have planned healthy snacks for the way out.

I just wanna survive getting back after a Bach party in the city.

PT update:

I moved out into the play room, and boy did we play. Good times. Feel good!

You weighted squats people are CRAZY!

On a serious note:

I joined Jess @ Operation Skinny Jeans for a private challenge.

I'm effing scared.

I've never lost my weight.

I've never even liked my body. much less love it

And I don't think I can succeed.

Annnnnd I have to do before and after pictures......

I'm scared.

But, I'm sick of feeling like this. 

I've been working my ass off since February.

I know I don't eat clean enough.

So here goes nothing.

I am nervous just thinking about it.

But i am sending my measurements and pictures to her today.

I want change.

I already do the gym 5 days a week at 5am.

I am already in the mindset to change my life. my body.

i am ready.

Shits about to get real.

Weigh In/Bad Day/PT update

Ahhhh the awesome yo-yo stag.
2-3lbs from 180-183.
This is where i was a month ago.

Gotta focus up and get past this.

I was 181 last week. Also Truth Gun, I am weighing in about 3 times a week :( but i swear its helping me make better choices!

PT Update:
Finally we are starting strength

I have tight/knotted/inflamed muscles on the inside of my right thigh.

The strength we did was core!

Booooo!

I hate crunches.

Plus I'm awful at core.

Which is why I'm prolly beer gut 100% of the time.

So we take this little ball and hold it between your knees or legs and have to do stuff with it.

Yeah I suck.

Core sucks.

Maybe having to do it will help me like it?

This is my new PT, Amy.

Shes cool and a lot more intense and ready to go!

I like! Heal me up! I'm ready to run!

Back to the jenky shock machine I used on my first day.

Yesterday at work was awful.

More so than usual. Usually i love my job.

Not so much as of late.

Anything that could wrong did, computer failure, system wipe all my data, pdf error = attachment fail to all the officers, on and on and on! :)

I have the best husband, he knows the way to my heart beer gut.

I came home to this! Murica, Amen.

Weigh in mini-victory

Truth gun to my head... I have been weighing in about every other day.
I know, I know!
:/
I shouldn't, but since relapsing to 188 I've been trying to be better.

Two weeks ago we moved and life has been chaotic since then.
The upside is I've made tons of food for meals for a week or so.
we have been eating considerably smaller meals on the go.
I haven't changed much in my work outs
still no serious cardio (no resistance, no running)
I upped my weights in my arm work out.

But looky looky!

Trying to live healthier for months,

being a regular 5-AM-ER since February,

made getting back down quick!
like 3 weeks quick. (bottom photo is today 183.4)

Pretty much all spring i have yo-yoed between 183-180 and briefly saw 179.
A friend I hadn't seen in a while said I looked good last night.
Then i stuff my face.
Balance.

I still lost this week, and Friday I had a scone smothered in frosting, I had wedding on Saturday, and cake at Church on Sunday. I certainly have not been disciplined or good at making decisions, but i have balance those bad choices with better eating all the rest of the days!

In other news, we cannot agree on a couch. Lazy boy has the best. They also cost your soul a lot of money.

We both liked this one but don't agree on the fabric.

I wish Lazy Boy didn't offer to change the fabric.

Weigh In - Back on Track

BLERG!

So i typed up the last weigh in on June 12th... and never posted it.

BOOOOOO!!! 

On June 12th weighed 188.

This was my initial weight in Jan/Feb when i started watching what i was eating and lifting.

I was really disappointed, but i hadn't eaten clean in 5 weeks that happens.

I weighed yesterday and today.

186.6 and 185

Ill take it even though I'm sure its water weight.

Back to eating healthy, no drinking during the week, and lots of gym time.

We bought our FIRST HOUSE!

WAAAAAAA!!! Also i spent more time in Home Depot (6 trips) than in this new house over the weekend.

TDubs wants me to make us a platform bed.

Aint nobody got time fo dat!

This is the general design for now...we will see where i goes when i finally sit down and design it.

We had HUGE amounts of help to move. Man, those boys unloaded that truck in an hour and a half. it was excellent.

My dad is super handy and helped us do many projects while they were here this weekend. Then they went home.

But this text message from him, is probably the highlight of my week.

Just saying!

Weigh in Wed!!

This sucks! 

Two weeks ago I saw 179 for the first time in years

Well since then its been binge drinking and bad food for two weeks.

So I guess it's no surprise that this morning I was 183.

:( Sorry the gym has shitty lighting. 183.6 to be exact.

I had a gawd awful reaction to quinoa that put me down and out last week and then I had a pity party and drank for several days.

Sooooooooo

1. No more DRANKS during me week

2. Choose healthy when we out or at small group! Commit, damn it!!

3. Gym time every morning mon-fri no more excuses or pity. Do it.

4. Also maybe buy lifting gloves... Your hands are jacked today!

Here is my kick arse healthy post gym breakfast!! poached eggs and turkey bacon!

WIW 5/22

Not my typically WIW... Or anyone's for that matter

Okkkkkkk! 

Quinoa = rashswellinggrossness!

Good LAWRD! - Is what I thought when I saw my face this morning.

Think, heat rash gone terribly wrong + swelling.

CVS at 10pm lastnight to hope up on meds.

I was praying for some relief by this morning.

No such luck, for this bitch!

TDubs is in the same shape. Less swelling though.

LUCKY!!!

Here we are, trying to be healthy and try new things. 

Enter Quinoa

EPIC FAIL!!

Off to convenient care, for this Puffer FISH!

I was the first one, Because yeah, i wasnt going to the gym.

Which means I will weigh in! :) ironically. But with all the swelling I'm not too concerned with how my weight turns out.

Effer! up to 181.2.

Totes swollen, dats why.

And here is the nastiest picture i will EVA post on my blog. 

I am trying to do the same angle with my chin up a bit.

As you can see i USUALLY have a jaw line.

And LOOK AT THAT FAT NECK! GROSS!

Also you can see my wicked scar from breaking my jaw. Funzies.

1st photo is from this weekend

2nd was done this morning pre-urgent care.

(also i just noticed how swollen my shoulders and collar bone are. ewww)

Two shotts in the butt, later, and my cheek and mouth seem to have calmed the eff down.

Neck and gullet are still all weird.

Ok Turkey Neck.

I felt like this, when i woke up.

Ahhhh such is life.

You try something new and 'healthy' and that shit LITTERALLY blows up yo face.

Don't hate.

But I (or the husband) will be eating this stuff every again.

HAPPY WEIGH IN WENDESDAYS YOU LUCKY CHICAS!

So if you had a gain today, or just arent happy with the scale,

think about my TWO shotts in my right butt cheek

and how i cried in the office because the dr. was a total hairy nut sack.

Is it Friday yet?

Home work out tonight.

No pity eating.

Pray for my reaction to go away before camping this weekend!

WIW 5/15

Linking up is my favorite thing to do these days.

today I hated weighing in.

I haven't run in weeks

I wrote a pity party post about it but never published it

who wants to hear my whine? not me.

but seriously I feel like I'm really suffering.

running helps me DEAL and now I CANT and therefore I feel like a crazy person off their meds

180.6 -5/8

179.2 5/15

holy hell!

How did this happen??

I have been STUCK at 180 for months!!!

And now I can't run.

So I'm lifting all the time.

How, what, when?????

Drank crazy over the weekend? Check

Eat tons of breads? Check

Whine, bitch and moan? Checkety Check!

Still doing the May challenge? check!

Still going to the gym (even thou it makes me wanna cry because I can't do ANY cardio)? CHECK!

Honestly I'm floored! 4 years ago was the last time I even saw any number below 180...

(that was harder to admit than posting the pictures of the scale..)

Here's what I rocked out to on Pandora this morning!

No Pandora I will not upgrade.

You are free!

Why buy the cow if you can get the milk for free!?

I'm sooooo bad at taking pictures of myself....

I have been "trying" to eat cleaner.

As shown here.

But I ate drank REAL terrible over the weekend. I am in a really difficult place because of my stupid leg i cut you

And I did stop weighing myself after the first month of being stuck. But today this totally lifted my spirits. I can tell you I have felt worlds better. My pants have gotten looser, I've had to tighten up my belt. Now, I don't wanna get ahead of myself, this is only 1 lb. BUT ITS ONE EFFING POUND I HAVEN'T been able to ditch for MONTHS! I still really wish my leg was better and I could run, just because it makes me feel good. But, I have taken to some other bloggers (MamaLaughlin and SkinnyMeg) and started lifting lots and lifting heavy. I have loved both of their arm workouts and have mushed them together. It works. Even if its ONLY 1 pound.

How was your WIW???

Did you have any NSV???

Weigh in Wednesday Link up

180 today.

Decided to start tracking weight again.

it really makes me angry pants

i haven't weighed in 2 months

and I'm the same exact weight i was then.

this is why i quit the first time

i can tell you ALL my pants fit better

and that i feel better

and my arms are much more defined that before but they are still a work in progress

so today i weighed in at the gym.

I stopped weighing while TDubs was in grad school

because none of my clothes fit and i just did not want to know

last summer (left side) i am sure i was at or close to 200 lbs

(right side was last Friday)

then the hubs and i tried to cut out processed foods or foods with ingredients would couldn't read!

I dropped about 8 lbs that first 6 weeks with no pasta or breads

then i yo yoed for a bit

then the holidays hit, YIKES.

Then January i got serious about training for my 10K that sucked ass.

February i started lifting.

i was terrified

but now its May and my arms have TINY definition

there is my love/hate relationship with weight and the scale

end rant.